last august

these three weeks, the Christmas break, have been too good

you don’t know what you have till it leaves you. you get used to being alone and turning to silent walls for comfort. then you return and realized there is another state of being, and you see just how happy you can be. here… home. there are always people who will be around for me; day and night i do not ever feel alone. in three weeks i saw everyone i needed to see, from the peripheral circles of whom i hold positive regard towards—”i care that your life is doing good”—to the closest of the closest. months of yearning realized in a few nights. i look around and think, this is my father, my mom, the fridge which is always full, and my bed of familiarity where i wake up without fear. now that i know the exact extent of happiness, that i can be happy.. how can i bear to leave.

- herbonestructure

this is what goes through my mind after a golden summer when all my favourite people are in town and in arms reach, there are places that have felt like home but really only one place that i feel this way about. a lot of things to figure out before i next go home in may but knowing that i’m returning to this makes all the difference you know, although i know it’s probably wise not to presume that singapore will still be all this for me and things will be just how i left them. so much has happened in the last 4 months and i can’t even begin to imagine what the next 5 have in store

(Source: blog.herbonestructure.com)